Flowerly Maua

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I smile recklessly and I love excessively. I live today knowing I have no other day until tomorrow. Now is my moment. Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is a mystery, but today, today is my gift (present).

Tuesday, 23 September 2008

Stations - be careful which ones.

I printed the following, celotaped it on the wall next to my desk. I pointed the wall when my boss asked for some work she needed like yesterday but hadn't been finished (she's been overworking me of late).

A bus station is where a bus stops.

A train station is where a train stops.

On my desk, I have a work station....
what more can I say........

I caught her on a bad day coz the next day she called me into her office where I almost earned myself a written warning.

Sunday, 14 September 2008


In Nakeel's confessions earlier in the year, especially the one person she could kill if she could get away with, I greatly admired her courage. My SiL is a total b**** and I guess she practices all HnH's suggestions.

I've heard others like this and this. Not very close to mine, but I'm quite satisfied that I'm not alone. I ask, for how long?

If my brothers and I agree to meet or do something together, she has to spoil it. I have only 2 brothers, but she has 7 brothers and sisters, not to mention she has both her parents and we don't. She can choose which one to talk to when she wants, but we 3, we just have ourselves. As the eldest in the family, I sometimes want to just shoot her, bury her and ask God for forgiveness.

If given the chance, she can easily employ divide and rule to set everyone against each other. 5 yrs of her in the family, we have just learnt her style and how to avoid her.

This weekend was one of the confrontational ones, and after much thought, it dawned on me what the bible says in Genesis 2:24, so, am I the intruder. Should I back off completely coz my brother can't even come to my house without a fight, or do I have to torelate her b*****it to have my brother. Why only her, coz my other SiL is a darling. We talk at least twice a month if not every week. They live further, yet I feel more close to my niece, and I see her more often than my nephews who live not very far from me.

I'm consoled that maybe I need to physically forget that side of my family until they come to their senses. I have to learn to pray for them and ask God to intervene.

'Dear God, please bring Mr Right in my life and I promise I'll be the best sister-in-law in the world, Amen.'

Sunday, 7 September 2008

Bible Versions

I lost my bible (The Amplified) a few Sundays ago, and I thought I’ll get a totally new version. King James, I thought, why not, everyone in church had one.

I’ve been surrounded by challenging issues lately, and turning to my new bible (KJV) did not make sense (I guess KJV is only useful on Sundays when you have to keep up with the preacher). I tried praying, the prayers bounced back unanswered (I think). It didn’t matter how loud I shouted, it felt like no one was listening. At this point, I normally turn to my bible. I really miss it, especially now that KJV is not working the miracles.

My broadband was down, so no reference to the online bible. It was devastating. I was almost giving up when I thought of my son’s bible (God’s word for boys). I‘ve no idea what version, but as I read through in a simplified version, there was clarity in the word.

Then I noticed the simple prayers (referred to as ‘Good Morning, God’) at the end of every 2-3 chapters. They are simple one sentence prayers for small boys, and I knew I had to be a kid again. It’s amazing that I just paid attention to them now, even though we’ve been reading the same bible for the last few years.

I concentrated on the book of Job, the only person I could relate to, and here are a few samples of the simple prayers.

Dear Lord

Job 3:1-3. Please help me not to be afraid to tell you how I feel whenever I have problems.

Job 7:17-21. Help my faith to grow stronger than my doubts when I go through tough times.

Job 12:12-25. When I do not understand, help me to remember that you know best.

Job 23:1-12. Help me to continue doing what is right even when it’s hard.

Job 42:7-16. Remind me of my future in heaven whenever I am feeling down.

Ps 16:8-11. Let me experience the joy that comes from a close relationship with you.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen

I looked at 2 scriptures, and compared the two versions.

Job 5:8 I seek God’s help and present my case to him. He does great things that we can’t understand and miracles that we can’t count. (I would seek unto God, and unto God would I commit my cause; Which doeth great things and unsearchable, marvelous things without number).

Job 4:6 Doesn’t your fear of God give you confidence and your lifetime of integrity give you hope? (Is not this thy fear, thy confidence, thy hope, and the uprightness of thy ways?)

I know which version I prefer now.